Close to End of the Beginning of My Life

Hey World,

So as I draw near to the end of my collegiate career the anxiety starts to settle in. This anxiety for some can cause them to lose their mind, and for others it fuels the fire burning passion within them. I am between the two maybe because a few years back I didn't think I would be where I am today and all that is happening is so surreal to me. It hasn't settled in yet. When will the tears flow? When will that barrier that continues to guard my heart from what the beautiful things this life have to offer crumble? God has blessed me so much over the past few years and I just can't believe it. The question, "Why me?" continues to linger in my mind, "Why was I chosen?" festers everyday when pondering on the series of things that have happened in my life. Maybe I should stop asking and go forth with the blessing bestowed upon me and bless others with the gift given to me. It's funny, two weeks are left and I am excited so excited that I don't know how to handle the glee within me. I am excited for my Grandmother who will see her first grandchild graduate from college with a Bachelors degree (the first of her children and grand-children). Before overwhelming is now becoming strong-will and determination to finish the race and finish it strong. Writing this blog in particular has been theraputic. When I mean I was ready to shut down....You all just don't know but, in this piece I have found peace knowing God is with me and will give me the strength to press on and finish. So as I draw near to the end of the beginning of my life, I have in mind my black brothers who hang on the corner who believe becoming a street pharmacist will be their fate. I am here to tell them, "NO brothers this is not your end". Look at Ray Rice and Courtney Greene they made it, so can you. You don't have to be the ball player put something in your head to make good decisions for the younger generation behind you as I have done for you. The end of the parking lot to the store and back does not have to be the furthest you will ever go in life. See Italy, France, Los Angeles and Washington D.C. Rise up and be those band of brothers who will stand strong for our sisters and not refer to them as "bitches and hoes", be better than that brothers. There have been many who have paved the way for us, let's take advantage of the road and build buildings on top of the foundation that was made for us. WHEW!!! As for me, I will finish....What about you????



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Location:Pierce St,New Rochelle,United States

The Storm

Hello Blog World,

This is officially my first blog and what a time to do so. On Saturday, March 13th, the roughest storm I've ever encountered during my 23 years of life on this Planet we call "Earth" occured. Around 9AM I went to pick up my Wife's Boss' computer and on the way back I picked up a headlight for our week old 2007 Dodge Caliber. I received a phone call from Erika and she said, "Babe, don't come home a tree has fallen and knocked the power out". I replied, "wow" and she continued on to say, "...and the tree fell on Crystal's car". Suddenly, I felt a chill run through my body, not because I thought she was hurt she was in the house "getting her hair did" at the time but because I had a feeling that one of the two trees adjacent from each other were going to fall. Earlier before I left I was within the trajectory of the the tree that fell checking the left headlight I received a ticket from the night before but, I had a premonition of that piece of lumber falling so I followed my instinct and moved. I think I have a sixth sense of seeing things before they happen (Final Destination like lol). Crystal said to me, "you should've told me you felt that way I would've moved my car" (I do feel somewhat guilty for not telling her hopefully her insurance company totals the vehicle and purchases her a new one). What makes all of this worse is that I have 2 computers to fix with a third on the way, I missing out on money people!!!! The aftermath of this weekends rain and wind storm was cinematically horrific, the thought of the "end of days" did run through my mind I admit. Down powerlines, twenty-foot fallen lumber, and blocked roadways made me feel trapped in this huge world. Now if this doesn't scare or at least makes the non-believer ponder about God and who He is, I don't know what will. Here in New York we don't experience storms of this magnitude so when one passes through it kind of feels like the "Hand of God" coming down on His people.

So let's see what did I learn from this storm and blackout. Well first I realized that God's force is mightier than any force on this earth. Whose breath is that strong that it can knock down an 1 ton (I might be underestimating the weight) tree causing utility lines to snap in half and crumble to the ground? I also realized that we rely on electricity way too much. What would happen if we had a world wide blackout? One thing I am happy about is after a storm there is always sunlight. Who reading this blog is going through a torrential storm like the one explained in this reading


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Location:Hunter Ave,New Rochelle,United States